Hope whispered "try one more time"

We had an incident a few days ago and weren't careful while dtd which put us at risk to get pregnant. That was the moment I realized we had to try again. That was the moment I realized that deep down I really want another baby. I'm very scared to have another miscarriage but I have hope that things will turn out better. I feel like apart of our family is missing and my heart is longing for another. So let's try this again! I'm right now CD 17 and I got my POSITIVE OPK today!!! We babydanced the past 4 days so my bases are covered. I also found a high risk specialist in the local hospital here that I got a referral from my OB to have a preconception visit. Unfortunally they are booked out until July so I have to wait for a call back to see when my appointment will be. I will be in pretty good hands and have two teams of docs looking over things. I'm planning on testing at 8 dpo which is my magic number (BFP with DS at 8 dpo) please if your reading and are the praying type, pray that I get a STICKY bfp. Signing off for now :)