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Saturday, June 29, 2013

Why you don't test with FMU

I learned yesterday not to test with my first morning urine (FMU) with an OPK because the LH rise usually begins in the early morning while you are sleeping and it takes 4-6 hours for it to appear in your urine after that. For this reason, first morning urine may not give the best result. Testing mid-day is usually recommended. It is important to follow the instructions of your OPK for maximum results.
Here's my OPK Cycle day 10 with FMU


Here's my OPK from the same day taken a noon


You see how much darker it is?!?!

Today's OPK- Cycle day 11 (noon)


Getting darker!! Yayyyyy!!




Friday, June 28, 2013

It's a beautiful day in OPK land!

Happy Friday Bloggies!!

 I'm in such a wonderful mood this afternoon. Do you know why? Well today was my first day using OPK's according to the SMEP (Sperm meets egg plan) I have to start using OPK's CD 10. I POAS and to my suprise it looks like it's close to positive!! I'm positive I'll be ovulating sometime this week and that makes me so so excited! The plan is supposed to help boost our chances at conceiving after a loss so I thought I'd try it again since it's worked in the past. I also learned something new today and I would like to share the knowledge for anyone that doesn't know. You have to use your OPK's with afternoon urine and not FMU or the results won't be as accurate. I tested early this morning and got a barely-can-see-it line and then tested in the afternoon and got a much darker line! I will post pics of my opks in my next post. Stay tuned for my POAS pictures I will be testing all weekend. TGIF!!!!

Thursday, June 27, 2013

Oopsie

I'm totally guilty. Guilty of forgeting to take my temp this morning during my morning routine. Then I got my schedule mixed up and came to work bright and early at 5:45am when I wasn't scheduled until 2pm. It wouldn't be a problem except for my job is so far from home (a 25 minute drive). So that's the type of day I'm having, one of those days! The next week is going to be a BD-fest because I'll be O'ing between CD 13-17 and I'm currently CD 9. Sperm meets egg plan is so exhausting and I've been super sick as well so my temps are wonky. I'm taking a break and eating whatever for this cycle, I figure If I'm pregnant I won't want to risk doing any damage down there by exercising! My preconception apt is around 12 DPO sp *hopefully* I will find out some good news! Signing off for now, Happy Thursday!

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

(Impatiently) Waiting to O

Cycle day 8 today and so far so good with temping! Here's what we're doing this cycle to increase our chances:

-SMEP (Sperm Meets Egg Plan)
-Temping/Charting
-Preseed
-Pineapple core during 2ww
-Prayer, lots of prayer!

 Please pray for us if your reading and your the praying type!! We started DTD after AF left town every other day and I start testing with my OPK's CD 10. The plan is to test twice a day when I get closer to ovulation and hopefully my temps will confirm O.

 I've been slacking (again) on eating but not doing so bad. I haven't gained that much weight but today I plan to start fresh again and stick to my two meals per day. My life is so consumed with TTC right now. I'm working on being more of a balanced person though :) Happy Hump day everyone!

Friday, June 21, 2013

TGIF.

I'm failing miserably at eating healthy and staying on plan. I have a severe sugar addiction that I can't seem to shake and I'm an emotional eater as well. Today was such an awful awful day, it started with my having to work 2-midnight on a friday which I was pretty bummed about and then everything at work seemed to irritate me and make me frustrated. I have so much stress right now also because of bills and other things so I wasn't in a good mood at all. I jope tomorrow is a better day, and it should be because we're going to a wedding. TGIF!!! Four day weekend here I COME! :D

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Keep on keeping on...

I haven't gained any weight nd I've lost the weight that I gained while pregnant with nugget. I'm still unhappy with how I keep bouncing between the 150's, am I ever going to break my plateau and reach my goal of 145 lbs.?!?! Will I ever be able to stop binging on junk food and having DH get me snacks after 1am when I work until midnight? I'm struggling staying on plan and I feel better blogging about it. Admitting it is the first step when you have a problem right? So today I plan to stay within my caloric range and exercise after work. We're going to a wedding Saturday so I kind of feel like I shouldn't eat until then so I can look nice in my dress. That would be unhealthy though, right? I weighed myself yesterday and I'm 157 which scared the crap out of me because I'm knocking on 160's door. I'll update tomorrow with how I did with staying on plan. Happy Thursday!

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

My 21 month old

With all the TTC/miscarriage talk I forgot to brag about my little man! Jace just turned 21 months a couple days ago. He's getting so big so fast and I can't believe we get to plan his second birthday party soon. He's very affectionate and loves to give us kisses and hugs. He loves playing with other kids and running around outside at the park. Right now we're still struggling with speech but I'm sure he'll catch up by the time he's 2. He's such a sweet sweet boy and I'm blessed to have him!

The witch is here

I got AF this morning :(

I also got the phone call that our preconception appointment was made with the specialist next month. I'm so diappointed that I wasted so many HPT's and OPK's and I felt super down about last cycle because we dtd so much I just *knew* I would end up pregnant. Good news is we're going to a wedding Saturday and I'll be able to get my drink on! I'm going to try the SMEP again and see how it pans out for us, onwards to cycle #2!

Monday, June 17, 2013

Feeling sorry for myself...

Reading my last post I can't help but to feel sorry for myself, I feel bad this blog has turned into a debbie downer blog. Today is cycle day 28 and my longest cycle is usually 30 days so I'm expecting AF anytime now. I've been testing since 8 DPO and I've had no luck so far...this TTC gig is a lot harder than I remember (especially after a loss). This is our first official cycle TTC after I miscarried in April why would I expect to get my BFP that fast? It took us 6 cycles to conceive nugget and I hope it doesn't take that long this time around! We BD so much though so I felt confident that we we're successful but if I were pregnant I would have my BFP by now! I'm just feeling so sad I'm taking a break until AF arrives, it's super hard to come on here and read about pregnancy and newborns while I'm staring at BFN's and still grieving over my miscarriage. So goodbye for now. 

Waiting for AF

Today AF should be here or tomorrow. Tested this morning (BFN). It's safe to say I'm not pregnant.

Friday, June 14, 2013

Not pregnant, Not infertile.

I've been testing and testing...and testing some more with no luck. It's BFN (Big fat negative) town for me and I'm getting pretty depressed about it. I should have been 20 weeks along with nugget right about now and it hurts. I'm not pregnant, and I'm also not infertile so people say rude comments to me about it. Nobody understands how painful it is to go through a miscarriage unless they have gone through it themselves that's why I try my best to ignore the comments. Trying again helped me sort through my feelings about the loss at first but now I'm not sure if this is healthy for me. I'm very bummed out about the BFN's and even though I'm only 8-9 DPO I don't know if I have it in me to keep doing this month after month. I'm not sure if I'm strong enough to hold on to hope that we will have another baby. This is just so unfair. What did I do to deserve this. :(

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

The countdown continues...

Today is cycle day 22 out of a 28 day cycle and I'm 6-7 DPO! I plan to test tomorrow when I get my hpt's in the mail and I can't friggen wait! I more than likely won't be able to sleep because I've allowed myself to get excited about the possiblity of a BFP. I may or may not be getting a positive pregnancy test in the next couple of days. I've been testing with opks everyday to try and use them as hpts and they are staying the same color but has two lines. The opk I took yesterday wasn't positive and I know it's very early to get a BFP. Last cycle I didn't get my BFP until the day before AF was due. Testing in less than 24 hours but who's counting?!?!

Saturday, June 8, 2013

One week wait

I never had a two week wait to test because I'm a POAS addict and I'm the most impatient person in the world. Today I'm 3 DPO (4 DPO according to my countdown to pregnancy) and I plan to test 6 days before my missed period with an FRER. Everyday is dragging and I wish I could test already! I ordered my HPT's online and I should have plenty to test with (20 IC's and 3 FRER) they should arrive by June 12th. and I will feel like a little girl on Christmas morning when they arrive. I'm starting to get excited about TTC and less depressed about the miscarriage even though each day is tough still. I think trying again has helped me emotionally and I'm glad we decided to try again. My EDD based off LMP would be 2-25 if we get our BFP. Testing in 4-5 days and updating with the results! :)

Friday, June 7, 2013

A girl can dream.

Well I'm very confused about this cycle because we decided to try right before I thought I was o'ing and I didn't get opks until 2 days later. My usual ovulation time is CD 13-15 and I tested CD 16 with my opk and it looked positive then tested in the a.m CD 17 and it was darker! My longest cycle was 29 days so I'm not quite sure when to expect AF. I think I will use CD 16 as ovulation day which puts me at 2 DPO!! I'm not the same though as before when I was TTC. I'm actually more nervous about getting a BFP because then I have to worry about having a 4th. miscarriage or having a placenta abruption later on *sigh* Timing wise we are looking good though, we've dtd everyday for the past week and a half and each time I layed down with my legs propped up, pillow underneath me. I've been less obsessive this go around but it's only my first cycle after the miscarriage trying. I found a great support group on FB of women who have been through miscarriages and it's been nice to have a group that understands what I'm going through. So now it's a waiting game to see if I'm pregnant or not. A girl can dream for a happy and healthy nine months after right?

Thursday, June 6, 2013

Hope whispered "try one more time"

We had an incident a few days ago and weren't careful while dtd which put us at risk to get pregnant. That was the moment I realized we had to try again. That was the moment I realized that deep down I really want another baby. I'm very scared to have another miscarriage but I have hope that things will turn out better. I feel like apart of our family is missing and my heart is longing for another. So let's try this again! I'm right now CD 17 and I got my POSITIVE OPK today!!! We babydanced the past 4 days so my bases are covered. I also found a high risk specialist in the local hospital here that I got a referral from my OB to have a preconception visit. Unfortunally they are booked out until July so I have to wait for a call back to see when my appointment will be. I will be in pretty good hands and have two teams of docs looking over things. I'm planning on testing at 8 dpo which is my magic number (BFP with DS at 8 dpo) please if your reading and are the praying type, pray that I get a STICKY bfp. Signing off for now :)

Sunday, June 2, 2013

More stats..and baby fever

Stats:
Starting weight: 215lbs. 9/2011
currrent weight: 151lbs.
goal weight: 150lbs.

I weighed myself this morning and to my suprise I'm down to 151 which is a 6 pound loss from my last post! I wanted to do a scale dance once I saw that number. I am so close to my goal that I made after giving birth and it's almost taken 2 years. I feel much more comfortable with my body and I love being able to shop and actually like the way I look in clothes. This journey has been very tough, but so worth it in the end. I'm proud to set a good example for my son by eating healthy and exercising.
 On a more baby relted note, I have baby fever! (OBVIOUSLY) I can't stop thinking about trying again even though the thought of another loss makes me very anxious and scared. We plan to wait until DH is finished with school and gets a better job (2 years) and I want to find a specialist and get some testing and answers as to why this keeps happening. In the mean time I have this raging baby fever that's like a beast I can't tame. I see babies everywhere (I call them baby candy LOL) and I just want to ohh and ahhh over every single one of them. I keep asking DH if he likes certain names and talking about "when we have more kids". I also can't bring myself to let go of Jace's baby clothes or pack and play because it will make me so sad! This is the hardest part of waiting to try, when the heart wants a baby but it's best for us financially and I have to get some answers first.