Sunday, May 19, 2013

Keeping busy is easy

We are planning a vacation to DISNEY WORLD  for the end of August and I am very excited about this! This will be our first family vacation and it will be 3 years since we went on vacation. People keep telling me to wait until J is older because he won't remember but we will take lots of pics and he will be very engaged during the moment so thats all we care about. We're planning our vacation for our Anniversary week so it will be nice to celebrate in Florida. I'm also working on remodeling our apartment little by little and I plan on starting with the bathroom first. I want to paint and redecorate everything and I'm still working on keeping my home organized and clutter free which is a challenege with a toddler tornado running around.
   Last night I broke down and started crying about our loss. It hurts it really does, but I'm trying to be grateful for the beautiful 20 month old I have and for his good health. In terms of trying again or having other children I don't think it's in the cards for me right now. I need to find a specialist and I'm terrified of having another miscarriage, or premature birth. In the words of one of my fellow moms in my sons playgroup I will never say never but as of right now I will be looking into birth control for at least the next few years. That makes me sad :(

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