6 Months not preventing...

I got AF two days ago and this is my 6th. cycle not preventing pregancy. I won't call it TTC anymore but we are waiting and open to a suprise in the future. I like it better this way because it is more laid back and I won't feel like a complete failure if we keep getting BFN's. My period came about 2 days late (the morning of cycle day 31 my average is 28 days) and during those two days I took a few pregnancy tests and prayed and hoped the wench wouldn't show. It's funny how you don't realize how much you want a baby until you find out you aren't pregnant. Luckily I have a precious sweet baby boy to make the time fly by faster and make this a lot easier to move on every month and keep "not preventing and hoping for a suprise." I may use OPK's this month and I may not...the neurotic obsessive part of me wants to temp/chart and use opk's so I will know when I o'ed but then we aren't "trying" per se so I have no idea if I actually will. I'm trying to keep busy to keep my mind off of this baby fever I have though. My "to do" list for the rest of this week consists of:

-Getting J on a good sleep schedule, staying consistent with his nightly routine

-Organizing my house

-Cleaning our bedroom

-preparing more meals at home

Let's see how I do! I'll be pinning for organization tips..yes, I'm a pin whore lol ;)

Epic Fail!

Well,
 the special k plan didn't go so well after all...I've been under so much stress financially that I haven't been sticking with my diet :( Good news is that I didn't gain any weight though..

In other news we are finally getting J on a good sleep schedule which equals me getting at least 4 hours sleep yay!! He has been going to bed around 10-11 and sleeping until 9/10 while only waking up once for a bottle in between. I'm so happy he is starting to sleep more at night. What worked for us was establishing a routine and then eventually being consistent with it. I only let him take one nap per day for no longer than an hour and then I let him play for most of the day. I give him dinner, bath time, and then I'll read him a book. I lay him down around 10-11 and he is usually knocked out by midnight. Such a big difference between a few weeks ago when he would be up at 2am playing and laughing at our attempts to get him to sleep. Current score:

Us-2
J-363

LOL!

Special K Plan- day 1

Today I started the Special K plan and I'm starving!! For breakfast I ate one bowl of the cereal and for lunch I'm having a vanilla protein shake. Dinner will be something low cal but I'm more than likely ordering because I'm exhausted. In other news we DTD during my fertile time frame this month so I still have a chance for a BFP! I'm on cycle day 19 though so about 10-13 days until the witch shows. We keep going back and forth between wanting to wait and TTC, signing off for now happy hump day!

Feeling blue

   I've been feeling very depressed lately and I'm not quite sure the exact reason why. I can think of some things that are bothering me and although some of them are stressful I also have a lot to be happy about. My habit that I seem to fall in when I get depressed is to grab something to eat because that usually makes me feel better temporarily. I've been doing poorly with my diet not eating clean enough so I'm starving by the end of each day and I've been getting hunger headaches. I think it's the weather here in New York! We have a low in the single digits tonight and there's something going around here everyone is sick! I just don't know why I can't get out of this funk I'm in. I really hope these next 3 days are better for me because I will be off work. My child has decided he doesn't want to go to bed until 4am so this rest is much needed. Thank god tomorrow is Friday!
 

More water please!

I think one of the most important components of healthy living and losing weight is drinking lots of water. I am now making a conscious effort to drink my 8-10 glasses a day, I actually brought a gallon of water to work today just as a reminder to keep chugging lol. As of today I am banning myself from soda and juice, it's not worth the calories and soda is so bad for you! I'm going to try my best and stay strong, I'd hate to ruin all the progress I've made this far. I have a date with hubby planned for this weekend and we're going bowling and out to a local bar for a drink and some food. I have no idea what food I will get but I will more than likely drink water. I'm weighing in every Sunday and at my last weigh in I was 156. I'm starting Leslie Sansone's walking cardio shape up Thursday or Friday so hopefully that will burn whatever I eat on our date. I'll probably update here again later..Happy hump day!

How I've lost weight thus far..

          This time last year I was a size 16 and miserable about my body and now I'm wearing a size 10 that is too big! I can thank counting calories and the Special K plan mainly for the weight loss. I've tried Atkins, Weight Watchers, Starvation, Cabbage soup diet, 3 day diet, you pretty much name it and I've tried it. I like counting my calories because then I can still eat what I want but in moderation, which I'm learning is key to successfully losing weight and keeping it off. So I can basically have my cake and eat it too right? The answer is no because I eventually learned the food that I was eating were high in calories and very unfulfilling. I then started to eat more fruit and veggies and lean meats and as I dropped the weight I became more motivated and started to exercise frequently. I fell off the bandwagon a few months ago though and I've maintained the same weight now for a few months which isn't as bad as gaining. Friday when I get groceries I will be buying a ton of Special K products. I love their products and I have tried the Special K plan and lost weight doing that also. My favorite cereal is the Special K Multi Grain Oats and Honey, YUM! I also love their protein shakes they're perfect for someone like me who is always on the go and doesn't have time to prepare a meal all the time.
     My exercise regimen will consist of cardio and weight lifting (to tone up) about 3 times a week to start and then I'll gradually increase it to 4-5 days a week. I'm hoping blogging about this will help me stay on track and focus to meet my goals. Another one of my favorites is Lesslie Sansone's walking cardio shape up, which I will be starting back up at the end of this week! It's a great workout for somebody who is out of shape or for beginners who want to pace their self. I was drenched in sweat doing the DVD at home last time so it definitely works and you will see results if you stick with it. It should be interesting doing an exercise tape at home with a toddler, last time my little pumpkin was only a few months old. My starting weight as of yesterday is 156lbs. and my goal is to lose 25 pounds by my birthday April 26th. I CAN DO THIS!  


  

New year, new blog name!

  I decided to change the title of my blog after a long talk with DH and a realization of us not actively TTC anymore. We've decided to wait until our son is 2 or 3 years old at the minimum and I think that's whats best for now. There are a few things I would like to do before baby #2 anyway and with us being unsucessful for all those months it was stressing me out!
   I think Fit Momma is such a cute name because my son calls me momma and my goal is to be more fit by the end of this year! I shot up to 215 pounds after giving birth and then shed 59 pounds in 11 months with the help of diet and exercise. I still want to lose another 15-20 pounds and tone, having a baby does a number on your stomach!